Wednesday, March 02, 2011

Almost 2 years....

We are approaching the 2 year mark of Noah being home. It's hard to imagine that it has been 2 years already. Though I can't imagine my life without him here, all the memories of him being gone, then returning, then the wait AGAIN for him to come home are all so fresh still...the pain, the faith, the trust, the joy. I am amazed daily as I look at my family. I'm reminded always of God's faithfulness!

As we approach this milestone, I am also sadly reminded that I have not been back to Haiti for so long. I did return once after Noah came home, but I have not been back since. That was over a year and a half ago. I miss her! I miss the people, the country, the feeling of doing something good for others, the feeling of making a difference. I keep praying and searching for direction on what to do. I know the Lord has given me this heart for Haiti and I feel like I am sort of wasting it, but at the same time I don't have clear direction either. There are so many great people working in Haiti. I have so many friends involved with GREAT organizations doing amazing things, yet here I sit in the comfort of my home wishing I were joining them. In all honesty, if Jeremy and I felt called to move to Haiti, I would do it in a heartbeat. Sure it would be tough leaving family and friends, but I would go if He asked.

I don't know what the future holds for me and Haiti, but I do know the Lord is good and He knows the plans He has for me! I guess for now that is all I need to know! I know He will lead and guide me in the way I should go. He is good! He is faithful! He is ALWAYS worthy of my praise!